I enjoyed reading your yearly reflection posts! We all live such crazy lives and do not get adequate time to hang out, so it was nice learning more about each of your years.
For me I originally considered this year anticlimactic. I’m still in the get-up-and-go-to class-5-days-out-of-the-week phase of my life. I still dream of the sunny days when I get up and put on professional clothes, instead of my usual sweats, and go to work. When I get to make an impact of peoples lives, make an actual paycheck, pay off my ever accruing student loans, etc, etc. I am so ready for my next phase.
Here we go.
School-This last year of class has had its ups and downs as usual. Occasionally, I may or may not call my mom crying. Whatever. I wish I could say that I trust God enough to trust I am smart enough and diligent enough to pull this whole pharmacy thing off, but there are still times where I doubt his plan. I can say that I have learned more than I ever thought possible and I am still learning. That part I love. Each week I face new challenges, most the time I have no clue how I am going to pull myself through it. Each week I make it through. Praise Jesus! The pharmacy journey continues onto 2016!
Work- Summer 2015 I started my new internship at CVS after saying goodbye to my dearest Starbucks in December of 2014. The transition was rough for a while because there are a lot of moving parts to a pharmacy. There is still a lot I need to learn about drugs and insurance companies. It was hard going from a job that I felt completely comfortable in, to a job where I knew almost nothing. Also, add in the fact I’ll be the one in charge of these bad boys in a couples years; I felt a lot of pressure to be better. I learned I was being harder on myself than necessary, my coworkers have told me a few times that I caught on really quick. My boss and some customers have complimented me too, which gave me a morale boost. I really like the pharmacists I work with and I have learned astronomical amount so far.
Family-as you may know my family is huge and loud and all up in each others lives. I miss them terribly most of the time because I live the farthest away. 2015 we married off my sister to her knight in shining armor, Jason. I am loving getting to know Jason more and more. He was a missing piece to our close-knit group. My other cousins have little kids ages ranging from anything less than 7 or so. I enjoy watching them grow and get their own personalities; they are such a refreshing treat each time I get to see them. My mom is still struggling with her health, but we are continuing our work together on that. The biggest news in our family, naturally, was the announcement of my little niece, Miss Daisy Adele Burgener! I am beyond excited so I will spare you the 5,000 word expose I could ramble on about her.
Love life- LOL, so it’s weird I even have information to share in the “love life” category. But sure, let’s do it. You all know most of this part. Anyways, I broke up with Ette this year, which I know was for the best. We were in different places in our lives, we were going different places, and in the end I knew it was not meant to be. I prayed about it and asked advice from my family. It was the best move for the both of us, I just wish he felt the same way about that. As far as I know, he’s back in grad school taking online courses at SIUE and doing great. Which is awesome….Anyways, Schwaar can attest to the fact I had vowed to stay single for the remainder of pharmacy school. haha. Ok, well I tried. Matt had reached out to me to go to wedding with him in October. So I said, sure why not? We’re good friends, that would be fun. And it was fun. And we got along really well. And then he got all serious and shared thoughts and feelings. And then I shared my feelings. And his name is Matthew. Yeah…..so I held out until the end of October, but then we decided to be together. We’re doing great, dating 7 hours apart is not the easiest, but it forces us to get to know each other on a “intellectual and emotional level” (his words not mine). So um, yeah that’s that.
Ted- Ted got stolen. Ted got beat up inside and out. Ted was forced by hoodlums to attempt to outrun the cops. Ted lost. Ted sat cold and alone in the City Tow for a month. Ted is now a total loss according to the insurance. They took Ted away. Ted is gone. Spoiler alert for 2016–I now have Fredrick (Freddy for short). He’s a ford fusion and we’re getting along great, but he smells weird. We’re working on it.
Me, God, and everything else- Prayer life is a rollercoaster. Some days it’s great and other days it’s not. The last year I felt like I lost some of the relationship I had built with God while I was at MOBap. I want to get that back in 2016. I am still working on trusting God and his plans. I’m learning how to pray and listen vs. worrying and “figuring it out on my own.” As always, I am thankful for our bible study and particularly thankful for each of you. I love the dynamics of our little group, we are all so different in our lives, yet we come together as a community in Christ. It is truly something special.
My prayers for 2016 go out to all us, that we may reflect on our past and see how awesome our God is; and let this epiphany fuel our passion for Him. Let his work be done through us, so that this year is greater than anything we could imagine. For God’s plans are greater than our own. Praise God for the gifts of life, love, and opportunity; praise God for another year. Let’s do this thing, 2016!